Sunday, March 31, 2019

Life update.

Dear Reader,

It has been a week since I posted. I've been busy with a new manuscript that I still have no idea what is going on with it. I started Camp NaNoWriMo a few weeks early and over the last few weeks I have written some material that's been emotionally brutal for me. I don't know if the end result will be something publishable or if it will reside in a drawer forever. Life has been challenging and difficult to find time to write.

Some of this is the fact that parenting is a full time job as is running a household. Some of this is the fact that I have been still struggling with depression. My mood is beginning to improve somewhat. I've tried forcing myself to write despite my mood disorder and all of the anxieties that goes with it. My morning pages have been ugly, folks. It's been rough going and I'm not sure how April will be at large.

I am still working on getting book four ready for release. It is far shorter than books two or three. It is definitely a novella length work. At the same time, I am anticipating that people will enjoy it because it is not as weighty as the other books. It marks the point where I am splitting the proverbial party. Books five, six, and seven are less jumping between major characters. It also is where you get more than a taste of supernatural shenanigans. I expect it to be ready by the end of May.

Book seven has gone in weird directions as I am trying to finish it up. I think that editing this is going to be headache. I'm not entirely sure what I am doing with this book. I honestly am concerned now that I may have to rewrite the entire thing.

Sunday, March 24, 2019

Craft of Writing: Writing through Pain.

Dear Reader,

I'm struggling right now to keep moving forward. I am well and truly depressed right now. Seasonal Affective Disorder and Bipolar have teamed up to do a number on me. Writing as therapy is a fairly well recognized practice. There are tons of therapy writing prompts out there. In the end, no number of prompts are going to help you if you are not willing to put something painful down on the page.

I've been in some form of therapy most of my adult life. I was introduced to journal writing as a therapeutic tool back with my first therapist in college. It was hard at first. It was painful and distressing to write down the ugly things that were in my heart and head. I was half tempted to give up on it right at the beginning because I didn't want to read these things to my therapist.

I mentioned this concern to my therapist and I was told something absolutely liberating. I didn't have to share anything in my therapy journal with them. I didn't have to discuss or show what I had written. The journal was just for me to write about what I was struggling with and how I was coping. It completely changed how I approached therapy writing. Instead of viewing it as an assignment to complete and turn in, it became a space where I explored my Post-traumatic stress disorder and all of its permutations in my life at that time. It became a space where I addressed my chronic nightmares and attempted to make sense of the insanity of my life at that time. The stress of college on top of the stress of coming from a traumatic history made things very difficult. My therapy journal writing became my lifeline to sanity through those challenges.

My morning pages look more like that old therapy journal work than the short stories I used to write in my writing journal. That is alright, though, because there is no wrong way to do morning pages or therapy journal work. The fact that I am writing the pain down and processing it is what matters. Between my knitting for charity, my crochet for charity, and my morning pages, I'm beginning to make progress on getting to the other side of this depressive episode.

Perhaps some day soon, I'll get back to writing prose that is more fanciful and artistic. Right now, I am just shoveling manure from a sitting position. And that's ok as long as I keep writing.

Monday, March 18, 2019

Posted from my phone.

It is a superintendent's conference day. I may be going a little bit crazy right now. So far, I have been bombarded with what if questions about things ranging from "what if we get a free cat ..." to "what would you do if we had a whoopie cushion the size of the earth? " If I ever say that I am at a loss for absurd prompts for writing, somebody remind me I have kids who ask the weirdest questions.

Tuesday, March 12, 2019

Please be advised, content coming soon!

Dear Reader,

I haven't forgotten about you. I've just been really, really busy. Next week, probably towards the end of the week, I will be posting up some new content. I've some irons in the fire that are just about ready to be declared completed. I'm also going to start posting weekly writing stats on my current project. I'm cheating at Camp NaNoWriMo because the kids have spring break in the middle and towards the end of April is going to be really busy around here.

My posting writing stats is going to be a little different than previous times. This is because I'm writing by hand and I'm logging details for SCIENCE! If you're following me on Twitter, you may have recalled I rather rashly accepted a challenge of writing a novel by hand with a mechanical pencil. The goal is to see if I can hit 50k with just one pencil. If MythbustersJr  were able to hit that number with a robot, I'm determined to get to it myself or possibly a little past it if I can.

My husband has declared me to be bananas and a dork. He might be right on this one.