NaNoWriMo or NaBloPoMo? Decisions, decisions.

 Dear Reader,

I've been struggling to make up my mind if I am going to do NaNoWriMo or NaBloPoMo. Some years I have attempted both at the same time. It did not end well. On the novel writing front, I am stalled between being sick and my depression. I don't know if that's going to improve by the time November gets here. I suppose I could grind my way through writing a novel. Or I could cheat and work on finishing two novels that I have in the works.

But I'm leaning towards blogging every day for the month as a way to get myself back into the habit of daily blog posting. I think it will be as much of a grind as working on a novel. But, in all honesty, it is probably better for me to kick start all my blogs and get back to writing in them. If in the course of all that blogging (I have 7 blogs.) I happen to feel the urge to write a novel, I will do it. I just have had mental silence on that front. It's hard to write when you're just staring at a blank wall until drops of blood form on your forehead and you have to stare some more before the words appear on the page.

The Prompt Box Has Failed Me.

 Dear Reader,

As you can tell quite obviously from the intervals between posts, I am struggling to write as of this time. I presently have had walking pneumonia for the last two months, I've been having sleep problems for almost three years now that are getting worse, and my anxiety over my writing has been sky high. As such, I turned to my prompt box. I found things like 'advice for new parents', 'worst cooking disaster', and 'list off the actors you find attractive.' None of that is truly relevant to this blog.

Being sick and exhausted for two months sucks. I go for a chest x-ray in two weeks. Next week I get my blood work done for my diabetes follow up. I anticipate both being unpleasant experiences presaging bad news at the doctor's office. I have been overwhelmed with worry, this could be part of why my sleep problem is getting worse, but I have no idea.

Today I woke up at 0300 and was up for the day as of that time. I've been waking up about that time for weeks now. I'm depressed because of seasonal affective disorder. It's just a rotten experience. I'm exhausted most days and in a brain fog because of it. I'm struggling with various aspects of my mental health disorders (which are the reason why I am disabled). On the whole, it sucks right now.

I wish I had something uplifting, entertaining, or informative. Instead, I have my sob story. Damn prompt box needs more prompts added so that my posts don't turn so maudlin.