- Get an idea for a project
- Crippling anxiety that the project won't be 'good enough'
- Try to work on project
- Make some progress on project (get roughly to the middle)
- Anxiety slams into me again that no one is going to read this
- Try to work on project
- Plot goes off the rails
- Get depressed that I can't manage to stick with my plot
- Try to work on project again.
- Eventually finish project
- Anxiety nails me that my work isn't good enough
- Shove project into proverbial drawer
- Proceed again from point one.
This doesn't just happen with my writing. I am currently working on knitting a scarf for someone's yule present. I am not even halfway done with it and I'm anxious that I picked yarn with the wrong colorway and a pattern that is all wrong for the yarn.
I fucking hate anxiety. I force myself to keep working but it gets really hard when the depression stage kicks in.
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