Dear Reader,
As you can tell quite obviously from the intervals between posts, I am struggling to write as of this time. I presently have had walking pneumonia for the last two months, I've been having sleep problems for almost three years now that are getting worse, and my anxiety over my writing has been sky high. As such, I turned to my prompt box. I found things like 'advice for new parents', 'worst cooking disaster', and 'list off the actors you find attractive.' None of that is truly relevant to this blog.
Being sick and exhausted for two months sucks. I go for a chest x-ray in two weeks. Next week I get my blood work done for my diabetes follow up. I anticipate both being unpleasant experiences presaging bad news at the doctor's office. I have been overwhelmed with worry, this could be part of why my sleep problem is getting worse, but I have no idea.
Today I woke up at 0300 and was up for the day as of that time. I've been waking up about that time for weeks now. I'm depressed because of seasonal affective disorder. It's just a rotten experience. I'm exhausted most days and in a brain fog because of it. I'm struggling with various aspects of my mental health disorders (which are the reason why I am disabled). On the whole, it sucks right now.
I wish I had something uplifting, entertaining, or informative. Instead, I have my sob story. Damn prompt box needs more prompts added so that my posts don't turn so maudlin.
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